Leave me and my raincloud in peace
I can’t really figure out what it is, but today is not a good day. I’m just tired; tired of dealing with people, tired of dealing with life, tired of smiling just so no one will ask how I am, tired of trying, I am just so tired of myself. Really, why even bother anymore? Now this all could just be a single bad day and I’ll be fine tomorrow, could be these thoughts that never leave my mind, could be some dumb memory that keeps replaying in my head; or perhaps it’s because I am terrified and no one else knows why. Either way, I sit here and wait under my lonely raincloud and ponder away.
Today
Today will be the same. Once again,
trapped in some other way. Delved into sin,
lay awake in shame. Another way this could have been,
take the time to love and pray. Yesterday was the only day I could win.
Tracing My Life In Words: Day 8
Will it be today?
I pray today will be the day.
The day when all things change.
Back to the days of smiles and play.
It’s not a hard exchange.
To trade pain for love.
All it takes is the right shove.
I pray your heart longs as mine does.
It remains yours, as I once swore.
As it is now and forever was,
A heart’s desire for yours, reach out, open the door.
When you will no longer keep me at bay.
I pray today will be that day.
