Tracing My Life in Smiles: Day 25
This was taken on a party bus after dinner at my fraternity’s formal. It was a blast. We ate great food, danced on the bus, went to an awesome hotel room and partied, celebrating not only my fraternity, but it also happened to be our two year aniversary. It was a great night spent with all the people that meant the most to me.
I wear things that she gave me
I listen to songs we said were ours
I cut my hair the way she liked it
I eat her favorite foods
I watch movies we watched together
I retell jokes that made her laugh
I visit places we went together
I admire the sweet gifts she once gave me
I flip through our many pictures of smiles and kisses
I stroll through the park as we often would
I read cute loving messages we once sent each other
I remember dates that were special to us
I relive memories of her constantly
Why?
Is it because I am a glutton for pain?
Or sorrow?
No.
It is because I still remember.
They are special to me.
And my memories are all I have left.
Leave me and my raincloud in peace
I can’t really figure out what it is, but today is not a good day. I’m just tired; tired of dealing with people, tired of dealing with life, tired of smiling just so no one will ask how I am, tired of trying, I am just so tired of myself. Really, why even bother anymore? Now this all could just be a single bad day and I’ll be fine tomorrow, could be these thoughts that never leave my mind, could be some dumb memory that keeps replaying in my head; or perhaps it’s because I am terrified and no one else knows why. Either way, I sit here and wait under my lonely raincloud and ponder away.
Tracing My Life in Scribbles: Day 21
(Sorry for the shitty quality, made this one at work today)
